Monthly Archives: January 2015

Old Lang Sign


Well, it’s 2015. I’ve never really understood what Auld Lang Syne meant. I’ve looked it up, but I never remember, so I’ve made up my own words:

“Should old LaQuayntense be forgot, And never brought to mind.”

(LaQuayntense was a big black girl I waited tables with some years back. She had dirty fingernails, wore undersized tube tops, and was really mean.)

“Should old LaQuayntense be forgot, and hang that old Lang sign.”

(I had a dear friend named Mark Lang who I’ve lost touch with. He’s older than I am. Much, much older. I want to start a custom where we hang signs for old friends to welcome them back.)

“For old Lang’s sign, my dear, for old Lang’s sign, we’ll drink a cup of kindness yet,

for old Lang’s sign.”

Around the turn of the year, I saw a lot of posts on Facebook and Twitter that 2014 sucked and 2015 was going to be amazing. Well, I’m here to say that 2014 didn’t suck, at least not all of it.

2014 was the year that my co-producer and director Tyne Firmin and I decided to make Merce a reality, and we did so much! I wrote the scripts, we raised over $15,000 to create the show, we hired the creative team and assembled the stellar cast, we had an amazing shoot. Truly, we couldn’t have asked for a more wondrous creative experience.

2014 was also the year that my boyfriend dumped me in an email. Totally Carrie Bradshaw, right? Blech.

We are now in the thick of editing Merce. The first result is our awesome trailer. (Have you seen it yet? Only once? Go RIGHT NOW and watch it again! Johnny Coughlin, our cinematographer and editor, did a fantastic job putting together compelling images from the entire season, really making composer Kenny Kruper’s Merce theme song come alive. I think it’s a great representation of what the show is going to be: funny, outrageous, bawdy and terrific.

Here’s the rub: the editing process is driving me crazy. We set out an ambitious schedule to have an episode per week done starting in December, to have all eight episodes completed by the end of January. As of today, mid-January, we don’t have the first episode fully edited. Holy F@#*!! And after the editing, Kenny still has to score each episode. The whole thing is making me totally nervous.

To add to the worry and stress, my father passed away on Christmas night. He’d been sick for a while, and although we knew the end was near, we didn’t think he would go so quickly. His funeral was January 5, and my nephew and I sang at the service. It’s been tough, and I’m staying in Arizona for a few weeks to be with my family. My Dad’s passing makes all my emotions go into overdrive, so a little worry about the show becomes a lot, and a smidge of stress magnifies into a glob.

I fully trust Johnny. Tyne and Johnny and I set the editing schedule without realizing how complicated the editing would be, and the apparently the audio files are more involved than Johnny expected. Stuff I don’t understand, so I leave it to the experts. Johnny also has other work to take care of, pesky bills to pay. Although we said, announced even, that we’d have the show out by Spring of 2015, I think it’s more important that Merce be as good as it can be however long that takes. (Johnny assures Tyne and me that the show will be out on time. He’s employed an assistant, who’s helping to get us back on schedule.)

That’s why, so far, 2015 ain’t 100% awesome. BUT, I know that emotions are like clouds and they pass. My mood will lighten and I’m sure that I’ll be back in the cheering section soon. I still believe that Divine Wow is guiding this project, and I have to trust that everything is happening as it should.

Still, if you could say a few Christus Dominus’, I’d sure appreciate it.



P.S. Johnny just got engaged! Congrats and best wishes to him and his lovely fiancee Alyssa! (Now get to work, boi!)

P.P.S. LaQuayntense, if you’re reading this, you still owe me 20 bucks.